Empress Sparkle

Callie (our Dutch shepherd) had a bad night last night so I’ve struggled to wake up today.  And I have so much to do.  My eldest daughter struggled with the video from last night, as in her eyes the vampires from ancient Greece are more Ghouls. 

So I came and hid in my office.  But I sit here thinking about the little time I spend with them.  I just wish I could feel ok with the amount coming in.  But I hate living on benefits and also hate not working.  Even though I am my eldest carer and I home educate my youngest, nothing gives me more joy then seeing people enjoy my YouTube videos.  I know so sad, but I love teaching and sadly my children don’t fully want to learn about this.  At same time just recently I do feel that I’ve lost passion for them.  As seems like what I intended for them isn’t what is happening with them. 

But at same time, I’ll go meditate like I have and that passion returns.   I think i can understand the frustration of a teacher, trying to teach so many students to learn.  This is where I need to remember each learn different. Some blogs, some videos, some face to face and I plan soon to have all up and running.  What way would you like to see them?

I’m sat now with emperor watching mythological beasts, its so amazing. I love learning about where other cultures saw the world and still do. 

Keep Sparkling